I’m a mess and I need some quality time with my dog. 

I’ve also determined, on a completely unrelated note, that I go through cheap little pairs of headphones at an alarming rate. I’m sure I’ll regret it someday when I’m old and can’t hear a goddamn thing. But there’s a degree of satisfaction in drowning out the creepy quiet with really loud music. Plus I need new ones anyway. The ones I’m using shock the crap out of me whenever I touch anything that has a static charge. 

I had a to-do list for today when I got home, written on a yellow post-it on the fridge. There were two things on it. I didn’t do either. I don’t really know why. But tomorrow I think I’ll go on a walk in the evening. It’ll be good to get some fresh air. God knows I spend my entire day cooped up at work where there are no windows, or in my apartment where I keep my shades drawn because I’m on the first floor and my only view is a creepy alleyway. 

Also, I need to drink more. I’m pretty sure the only thing I had to drink today was a disgusting sip of old Diet Coke. I’ll drink water tomorrow tomorrow too, I promise. Otherwise I’ll get weirdly dehydrated and then all sorts of bad things happen. Really, that’s probably why I’ve been so edgy lately, among other things of course.

I wish I had my Gameboy. What the hell was I thinking when I left it at home. I’d be playing a shit-ton of Pokemon. I mean I can play online, but it’s not as fun. 

And damn, Adele, please stop entrancing me with your voice. Your music is far too depressing for my taste. I know I have a fickle heart, and a bitterness, and wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head..seriously stop it. 

AHHH. WE FOUND LOVE IN A HOPELESS PLACE. I really can’t stand Rihanna, except for this song.  

Yeah, I need to go to bed. 

And I want to go home. Just so we’re clear on that. Even though I know once I get home I’m going to be wishing I was back out here. Honestly. I need to dial it down like ten notches and relax. 

Oh. Things to do right away when I get back, so I remember:

-Drive my car. And play music super loud out the windows while driving through Indian Hill. Because I can. 

-Snuggle with my dog

-A nice dinner with the breakfast club (ha, that seems so counterintuitive). This includes spending time with all of my other nerdy friends who I haven’t seen in way too long. 

-SEE KATIE (even though we always plan to do shit and it never happens but we’re both busy so I don’t blame her because she’s the best)

-Skyline

-EL RANCHO GRANDE

-Black Raspberry Chip ice cream from Graeters

-A burger from Quatman’s cafe

-Italianette Pizza. And one of their really delicious salads with bacon in it.

-Wii with my sister

-Kings Island, whenever the hell it opens

-Throwing a softball

-Anatomy class (shut up, Anatomy is my favorite)

-Target in Pleasant Ridge. And Meijer. And what the hell, I’ll hit up Steak and Shake too, even though I can’t stand waiting that long for a mediocre cheeseburger. At least their milkshakes are good.

-Go to the Kenwood Mall and walk around without buying anything like I always enjoy doing. 

-Locate my Gameboy

Yeah okay enough of this, for now. I’m sure I’ll think of more things I’ve been wanting to do.

OH SHIT I THOUGHT OF ANOTHER THING. I will get Chipotle. And fuck the whole health kick burrito bowl thing, I am getting a BURRITO. Seriously all that is near me out here is Qdoba and don’t get me wrong it’s delicious, but it really doesn’t do when you’re craving Chipotle. Which seems really nit-picky and obnoxious when you consider that they’re like the same restaurant. But their food is very different. 

Oh. And PENN STATION. Chicken Teriyaki sub. No mushrooms. Plus banana peppers.